Will You Have Success Or Will You Fail? You Decide…


I was always told by many people in my life that if you wanted to be successful, you had to hang around successful people. Have you ever been told that?  What makes it funny for me is that those who told me that were not successful at all. But, now that I am older and I think of that saying, to me, it does not equate to having money or being wealthy. I’m sure it can be that way for some, but in my opinion, being a success or successful can be go with any analogy in life.


As children we all wanted to grow up and be so many different things. I remember wanting to be a nurse, lawyer, doctor, a cashier ( lol), marriage and family counselor, then a writer. I had so many dreams and aspirations that were mostly crushed by family, friends and some peers. Negativity can really bring down your natural high. It make you feel less then or incapable of waiting to achieve anything.  Recently, I was talking to my father and he was going over some old photos. While looking at the pictures, I saw that he had every single certificate and award that I had received through out my years. I must admit, I was surprised and taken a back. For one, I didn’t know he kept all of my things and for two, I had forgotten some of my accomplishments even back then. Looking back on it now, I’m proud to have accomplished all that I have from then to now.


At my age now ( I’m only 30), but I’m old enough to understand life a little more clearly now, failure to me is not trying. I am determined to be a New York Times Best Seller no matter what! Thus far, I have written 10 novels and I’m going for the gusto! I am going to submit a book that I will write to a couple of traditional publishing houses. Am I afraid that I will fail? Sure, I am. But, I do know that I won’t know until I try. I am a big fan of Ms. Oprah Winfrey and her story moved me. What I like about Oprah is that she did not let the” no’s define her nor stop her. Guess, what? You better not either! Let the no’s in life be the reason that you stay up later working, studying harder at night to get that degree or diploma and see how the hard work will pay off. As my grandmother always said, ” Nothing beats a failure, but a try.” Readers, I am telling you, no matter how hard it may seem or feel, don’t give up. You never know if your next move will be your best move. But, once you make that one right move…checkmate!

Write Like No One Is Reading

Hey Readers!  

Good evening

I hope that everyone is doing well on this Thursday evening. I am doing better with my diabetes. It’s still a learning experience for me. But, I wanted to hear from you guys about how things are going with writing. Writing is something that we can do at any time of the day. Lately, I’ve been enjoying writing on this blog and in my journal. But, sometimes we are unmotivated to put anything down on paper because…well, we think it’s crap! LOL…I know it may sound funny, but usually what we think is horrible ends up being a gold mind. How often do you write per day on your projects and just for down time ( if you do write in a journal, etc). For me, I write on a daily because I’m in school. It’s tedious to write scholarly papers with APA format. I love being able to have creativity in my writing. This is where my w.i.p’s ( works in progress) come in play.

When you become a writer

As writers one of the good things is that we are able to drift off in another part of our minds. Using our imagination to get the thoughts down that we may not be able to really say in real life, lol. At least, sometimes that is how I think of it. I know that most writers are introverts, but for those who are extroverts, hey, rock on! Do you ever get the feeling that you are writing for nothing? At times when you have completed a novel or even a screenplay, the little devils called fear and doubt start to appear and make you think the worst. Guess what, don’t let them! I was just told today by one of my previous instructors in college that ,” you are not allowed to worry about something that has not happened yet.” When I told about it, she was 100% correct! I tend to focus on the negative, before the positive has the chance to rear it’s ugly face! Don’t give negativity the power. Besides, being negative is stressful and takes up so much unwanted energy. Be positive, stay positive!  Again, I know that this is easier said than done, but hey, you have to start somewhere, right?


I do not care if you write two paragraphs or two chapter,s the goal is to WRITE!  Write like there is no one reading your work. I have used this mindset a lot lately, and I got so much work done! Yes, non-writers, writing is a job. I know there is someone who is going to read this blog and think differently. But, don’t get it twisted, everyone can not write a book. It takes skill and discipline. Either you have the gift of writing or you don’t. Okay, I’m getting off track now, let me bring it back! Write every day and you will feel like you’ve had a productive day. I’m off of work until Tuesday due to my asthma, but I’m going to make the most of those days and write. What I will be working on is an outline for my next book that I’m writing.  Want to know what it is?                Don’t worry, I will post the cover and you can even read the synopsis! This book is called Trapped. It will be my last self published novel. I am going to attempt to advance into the traditional publishing world! I know nothing about that life, but I’d love to learn all that can. I will querying agents with my future works. No matter whether you are writing for yourself or reach a certain audience, be the best writer that you can be! Do not let anyone stop your journey of achieving your published novel. I always tell other writers to surround themselves with other writers and writers that you want to learn from. For example, on my twitter page I connect with mostly writers, literary agents and screenwriters. Why? Well, I want to be an NYT best seller one day. I feel that I have to connect with those who have already achieved that milestone. Don’t get me wrong, I connected with self publish authors too, but I follow more closely those who have been successful. Let me tell you something, if you want to be successful, you have to work hard and surround yourself around those who are already successful. Honestly, that is with anything in life. Those people know our current struggle to succeed because they have been there. But, I will tell you this, you won’t achieve anything if you don’t write.  What i want you to do now is comment below letting me know if you enjoyed my blog this evening and what you will do better to achieve your goals. Happy writing, guys!

New Cover

My latest novel get your copy on amazon.com!

Genre: Thriller

Pen Name: Alex L. O’Conner


Special Jenkins is a girl who has had a hard life. Being adopted by the only parents she knew, Special knew she was loved. But, at the age of 16, her adoptive parents were both killed in a car accident, which resulted in Special living in foster care until she was 18. Trying to find her way on earth alone, she graduates high school and enrolls in college. Now living on her own, Special must survive on her own being a struggling college student. Special Jenkins is a normal college student trying to make it in life. She looses her job and finds another at a local strip club. What was suppose to be a bar tending job, turns out to be a dancing one, where the men dream of her at night, and lust over her by day. But, she belongs to the manager, Boobie. Trying to be happy in life, Special finds out a secret about her real family that will put everyone in danger, including Special. Happy in love, living the good life, Special’s life stops at a screeching halt, when her biological cousin, Candace, has an important message from her biological mother, Sheryl, who wants to talk to Candace before she dies. A panicked and distraught Special, is full of pain and turmoil about her dying mother. Debating if she should find out why her mother abandoned her, Special finds out more secrets, from her boyfriend now fiancé Boobie. Torn between the love of her guy and the truth of her mother’s past, Special can not kill two birds with one stone. Instead, she puts the guy on the back burner, to attend to the dying mother, only to find a secret that has not only harmed Special’s mother, Sheryl, but it will also affect Special, and the love of her life. Finding out these terrible secrets, Special blames her dying mother and goes out to get revenge. She puts everyone that she knows at risk, including her friend, Persia. But, first, Special must tell the love of her life this horrible secret that was told to her just weeks ago while visiting her mother in Florida. Boobie takes the news badly, which leaves Special in danger for her life. Will she be able to escape her past and present and be able to enjoy her future, or will her future cease to exist?

My next work in progress:

Trapped Cover

Friday Reads

Hey Readers, happy Friday!

Friday Reading

I hope all is well and you are reading your ass off! I have been reading, but I am really going to be reading a lot today. Check out my video to see what I will be reading and what I think thus far! Click this link to see the video! 



For this book I am reading the second book, Onyx!


This is starting to pick up!

Book Review: The Lux Series: The Beginning by Jennifer L. Armentrout ( Obsidian)


Title: Obsidian

Author: Jennifer L. Armentrout


There’s an alien next door. And with his looming height and eerie green eyes, he’s hot…until he opens his mouth. He’s infuriating. Arrogant. Stab-worthy. But when a stranger attacks me and Daemon literally freezes time with a wave of his hand, he marks me. Turns out he has a galaxy of enemies wanting to steal his abilities and the only way I’m getting out of this alive is by sticking close to him until my alien mojo fades. If I don’t kill him first, that is.

Number of Pages: 380 ( For Obsidian only; total number of pages 800)

My Version: Paperback

My Review:

This was my first book by Jennifer L. Armentrout and I must say why did I not pick her any of her books sooner! This book is an alien love story. I thought it would be boring, but I was so surprised. The book is about a girl named Katy who moves to West Virginia with her mother looking for a new start from Florida. Starting school soon, Katy’s mother wants her to make friends and mention that there are two kids her age (17) who live just next door. One of them is a hottie. Now, what I like about Katy is that she is a book blogger and loved to read, ( sounds familiar, right). She knocks on the neighbor’s door in hopes of making new friends and seeing the hottie for herself. She met Dameon who is a complete ASS! I mean he is so rude and extremely over protective about his twin sister Dee. Katy makes friends with Dee and in the process she gets to know Dameon. As time passes, Katy starts to notice different things about the twins that are a little ” peculiar” and she wants answers. Once she finds out the truth it changes her world. I high recommend this book. My only con is that the ending was very predictable. I know that there are four books in this series, but I wanted more. I look forward to continuing this series.

My Rating: 4 stars


Book Review: The Girl in 6E by A. R Torre


Title: The Girl in 6E ( A Deanna Madden Book #1)

Author: A. R. Torre


My life, inside this apartment is simple. It works, as long as I follow the rules.

1. Don’t leave the apartment. Not in case of fire, not to mail a letter, not to run an errand. The door stays shut, and I stay inside.
2. Don’t get attached to clients. I take off my clothes, I stand in front of the camera, and I perform. What they want, I give. Their secrets, I keep. Everything I tell them, is a lie.
3. Don’t kill anyone. I’ve obeyed that rule for over three years.

Number of Pages: 374

My Version: Paperback

My Review:

To say that this was book is not a great read, is a lie. I enjoyed this book from start to finish. Before I proceed with the review there is a trigger warning of strong sexual contact  and killing so it is not suitable for younger kids.  This psychological thriller was the book that I needed in order to get out of a slump. I never wanted to put this book down. This book is about a girl named Deanna, but goes by her ” stage” name Jessica Reilly. Jessica is what you call a ” cammer” someone who performs sexual acts on herself for an internet audience of men. She basically works in the adult industry. She has a fear of going outside of her house due to the fact that she dreams of killing someone. To calm her urges she locks herself into her apartment during the day, but at night, it is anyone’s game. Going through a lot in her childhood, Deanna dreams of going outside and having a normal life, but she fears of killing everyone in sight. Surviving in every day living does not stop Deanna aka Jessica because she is able to order ALL of her things online from food, toiletries, etc. This book was very unique and interesting and I look forward to reading the second book in this series.

My Rating: 5 stars

Book Review: A Little Something Different By Sandy Hall

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Title: A Little Something Different

Author: Sandy Hall

Number of Pages: 274


The distinctive new crowdsourced publishing imprint Swoon Reads proudly presents its first published novel―an irresistibly sweet romance between two college students told from 14 different viewpoints.

The creative writing teacher, the delivery guy, the local Starbucks baristas, his best friend, her roommate, and the squirrel in the park all have one thing in common―they believe that Gabe and Lea should get together.

Lea and Gabe are in the same creative writing class. They get the same pop culture references, order the same Chinese food, and hang out in the same places. Unfortunately, Lea is reserved, Gabe has issues, and despite their initial mutual crush, it looks like they are never going to work things out.

But somehow even when nothing is going on, something is happening between them, and everyone can see it. You’ll be rooting for Gabe and Lea too, in Sandy Hall’s quirky, completely original novel A Little Something Different, chosen by readers, writes, and publishers, to be the debut titles for the new Swoon Reads imprint!

My Review:

This was the first book that I read by this author. I was a little hesitant at first but excited. What made me want to pick up this book was that it had creative writing in it. I am a writer and have an MFA in creative writing. It definitely peaked my interest. Lea and Gabe are two students in a class who start to fall in love. The book was a quick read, but at first I was confused because there were so many different perspectives. As I kept reading I understood the concept. Sandy wrote a great book and I look forward to reading more from here. The only con that I have is  I wish it would have continued and we could see what happened after the fact. The characters that I really enjoyed was of course Gabe and Lea, but I also liked Victor’s character. He brought a different perspective on the book that I thought was hilarious. I highly recommend this book to those who are interested in reading it!

My Rating: 4 stars

500 Subscribers!

Good evening

Hey readers! I know it has been forever. I will not make any excuses for my tardiness. But, I hope that all is well with you guys. I am too excited that my YouTube channel has hit 500 subscribers! Definitely check out the video and enter the $50 giveaway that I am hosting as well!

How have you been?

Being as though it has been a while, I am still doing the same things. Job hunting, taking 2 classes this quarter in school and reading a bunch! I know that I have not posted any book reviews in a while, but since then I have read 5 more books. Check out my YouTube channel to see more reviews and what I am been reading lately.



I have been reading a lot lately. My momentum has been going strong. I am so happy to be reading a lot more and I will for sure start posting my review again. Here is my list for my September TBR thus far.

  1. Obsidian by Jennifer L. Armentrout – Currently Reading
  2. Onyx by Jennifer L. Armentrout – Will read next
  3. A Little Something Different by Sandy Hall – Read ( 4 stars)
  4. The Wait by DeVon Franklin and Meagan Good – Read (5 stars)
  5. Throne of Glass by Sarah J. Maas – Currently Reading
  6. The Archived by V. E. Schwab – Currently Reading
  7. Assassins Apprentice by Robin Hobb ( Will start on Friday 9.9.16)
  8. Watching Edie by Camilla May ( Will Read Next)

I have a rather ambitious TBR being as though I am taking 2 classes this quarter for school. Pray for me guys! Let me know what are you currently reading?

Book Review: A Little Life By Hanya Yanagihara

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Title: A Little Life

Author: Hanya Yanagihara

Rating: 5/5

Would I Recommend? Yes

Book Review:

This is the first book that I have read by this author. Wow, I must say that this was very hard to read, but it had me wanting more. There will be spoilers in this review for sure. I thought that the author’s writing was very detailed, graphic, and descriptive. This book consists of self-harm and rape for those who are uneasy about graphic violence. I can understand why I took my time reading with book with a friend. At first, the beginning of the story was daunting and very slow. It talked about Willem, JB, Jude and Malcolm who were all friends in college and the book depicted their lives over 4 decades.

Willem, the actor, had a hard time in the beginning of his acting career. He would play roles in indie films, plays, monologues, anything in order to get himself out there. He was very popular with the women, but then started to have a liking to men. As he got older, he became famous and ended up dating Jude. He wanted the best for Jude since he has been through a lot. What I would have prefered if the entire book was about Jude, but I do like how Jude’s friends help him live his life even though they were in the dark about a lot!

JB, honestly, I did not get a lot out of his character. I do know that he was jealous of Willem being with Jude because JB was gay and had always crushed on him. His character is very saracastic with an ” asshole” type vibe, but he cared about his friends a lot.

Malcolm, was another friend that I did not really learn that much of. The story mainly was about Jude a boy who was abused his entire life whether by himself or others. He was in monestary school when his sexual abuse first started happening and a father ” Father Luke” to be exact kidnapped him and pimped him out to other men. He made Jude believe that all would be okay once he turned 16. What I didn’t like that this man repeadily raped Jude and taught him how to cut himself. This part of the story was very distrubing.
As Jude got older he did continue to be abused by others except for his friends once he was an adult and he would tell him lies about his body and the cutting until they found out ( at least about the cutting). This book made me think a lot about what peopel can really go through in their lives and how they feel no one cares or are able to help. As I was reading, I would find myself cringing when he would cut himself and always tried to kill himself. I won’t give too much away, but this book has really changed my life about how I view people. You never really know what is going on with someone truly. Jude tried his best and at most times he succeed to mask his past, but silently it always came back haunting him. The more I read, the more I wanted him to have peace and be okay. I wanted him to learn to love himself, but the happy ending did not happen, at least not the way I wanted it to. This book is powerful read and it is a must read.

My Reading


Hey readers! Well, tomorrow is Friday and I can’t wait for the weekend. My mother and nephew are coming to visit me. This week had been a productive one and I started to write again yesterday. If you read my post, then you know that I am finishing a novel that is long overdue. But, progress is being made.  I wanted to blog today about my reading as of late. I am reading about 8 books right now. They are Salem’s Lot by Stephen King, This Is What Happy Looks Like by Jennifer E. Smith, Salt and Storm by Kendall Kulper, A Little Life by Hanya Yanagiharia, The Great Gasby by F. Scott Fitzgerald ( actually I DNF that one), and Pride and Prejudice by Jane Austen.

My Reading Style

A little life

My style has changed a lot since reading this book. I couldn’t just read the paperback book on this one. I am also listening to the audiobook. Thus far this book is SO graphic that I have to see what is going to happen next. Check out my YouTube video of this book that I have done talking about part 1. As I am still reading reviews of this book, I am started to agree with some of the other reviewers. But, I am feeling bad for the character of Jude because he has been through so much. I won’t go into detail about this book because I did in my video, but so far this is a 5 star read.

I find that I read best at night with paperbacks and listen to audiobooks a lot during the day. Since I’m not working right now and my class is finished, I am reading a lot. I love that I am getting through more books. It is a relaxing thing to do. I am able to go to another place and relieve some stress. My favorite reading place is my bed. Sometimes I read on the couch, but the bed is the favorite place.

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This book is somewhat starting to get good. It’s my first time reading a book by this author and I don’t know how I feel about it yet. It’s about a girl named Avery who sees a vision of herself being murdered. The dream is freaking her out and she wants to talk to her grandmother about the dream because she is a witch. Avery’s mother does not want her to be a witch, but she feels it is her birthright. I will continue reading this book although I did put it down. I am focusing on two books a time right now and that is A Little Life and This Is what Happy Looks Like.

What are you currently reading and what is your reading style?

The Writing Struggle


Good afternoon, readers! I have to keep telling myself that life is beautiful. It is because I am alive and well. But lately, I have been wondering what has been holding me back with writing? Then it dawned on me, I am not focused on writing. I have so many stories that I want to tell that I can not focus. I have been all over the place with everything else like job hunting, contributing more to my youtube channel and trying to figure out my life. Yea, I know. I would think by now since I am 31 that I would have my life together, but I don’t.

My life coach has been helping me a great deal of keeping my mindset focused, but as they say, ” the proof is in the pudding”.  It is time for me to get the fingers on the keyboards and make magic. So, in order to give myself more motivation, this is what I am working on.

Trapped Cover

I need some help from my great readers! Please post motivation and words of encouragement so I can finish writing this book, lol. Knowing that people are excited about my work helps me keep going. After all I am a writer. Writing is what I am going to be doing!

Monday, oh Monday!

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Happy Monday, everyone! I know it’s been a while since I have blogged anything. But, I did a MukBang video which is really popular these days on YouTube. I tried my hand and do a breakfast one. Check it out here.  So, what has been going on? For me, I let’s see, there is so much to catch up on.


reading 5

Guys, I am so excited to say that I read 5 book in the month of July! I could not believe it. I made an August TBR video of what I will be reading next month and it is an ambitious TBR.  I am currently reading Rebel Angeles by Libba Bray and A Little Life by Hanya Yanagaharia.  They are some clunkers, but they are coming a long nicely. I am also going to be doing JaneAustenians, which is a group on good reads where we are reading Jane Austen’s book. The first book that will be read starting today is Pride & Prejudice. I had tried to read Northanger Abby by Jane Austen, but I couldn’t get into it. Hopefully, Pride & Prejudice will be good since I LOVED the movie. Check it out. The video is on youtube go to ReadByZoe. I love her channel.


Keep Writing

I have to have the photo to keep writing so I can continue to motivate myself. I am making an to-do list ( I’ve done for the millionth time) and today so far has been a productive day! I am going to attempt to write a chapter a day in order to get this book completed. With the book I am writing, I will be trying to get an agent to get traditionally published. My goal is to be a NYT best selling author.


What have you been up to?



BookTube A Thon TBR 2016

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Hey readers! Happy Monday!! I know this day may not be everyone’s favorite, but we have to do what we gotta, right?  This is my first reading challenge that I am apart of. A lot of book tubers and bloggers are participating in book tube athon this year. This reading challenge is something I have seen every year on book tube and since I have been in a reading slump with the books that I feel I am not into at the time. I figured this was the great pick me up I needed!

I know you are wondering…

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What is she going to be reading now? Well, I have 7 books to read for next week’s reading challenge and I am very excited to get started! My enthusiasm is really helping me a lot so much that I started another book and I am loving it.

Check it out…


Yes! I started it last night and I am already on Chapter 4. I am going to aim to finish the book tonight because it is that good. I think what I needed was something that was light and not so serious. Does that ever happen to you with your reading?


Funny Reading

My books for booktubeathon are:

  1. The Great Gasby by F. Scott Fitzgerald – A book that is older than you
  2. If I Stay by Gayle Foreman – A book and a movie adaptation
  3. This Is What Happy Looks Like by Jennifer E. Smith – A book that has yellow in it
  4. Point Of Retreat by Colleen Hoover – A book by your favorite author
  5. The Reunion by Nora Roberts – A book to read as the 7th book
  6. Throne of Glass by Sarah J. Mass – A book you heard about on book tube
  7. Salt & Storm by Kendall Kulper – A book to read after sunset

To see what the books look like and check out my video click here

Let me know in the comments below or post video links if you are doing the book tube a thon 2016!